Posts tagged with "Being a Mommy"
Michael,
Very soon, we'll walk our baby girl through the doors of her elementary school. It's hard for me to believe, since it seems like only yesterday we were tucked away in a cabin at Camp Tecumseh doing this:


I've never noticed it before, but I wonder if somehow we knew, even then at just 5 weeks along, that she'd be a girl. Look at our shirts...she would absolutely *adore* the fact that the color scheme for her pregnancy announcement was pink. :)
She's all me in so many ways, but she got at least one thing from you, babe: That girl is as sharp as a tack. She picks up on things so quickly and dang it if she doesn't remember them forever. Today we drove down Union and over the Union St. Bridge. When we passed the bar and the laundromat, she said, "Man! I see the same word four times, and it's in the same colors. It's starts with an "o", so I bet it says, 'Open,' because the businesses want people to know they're open." Obviously, she was talking about the neon "OPEN" signs that were hanging all over.
We did good, honey. :) She's a firecracker, and we're still refining a few personality traits, but that girl is amazing...and we made her! :) How incredible is that!?
I'm so excited for her and proud of her, and I know she's going to be great. But something else hit me this afternoon. Something I didn't expect.
I got overwhelmed with how grateful I am that she has you as her daddy. She'll face incredible challenges inside the walls of that school. She'll be trying to figure out who she is and what makes her special. There will be times when she wonders whether she's beautiful or smart or good enough. We are releasing her into the world for the first time, and the world's going to do its best to break her down and conform her to its ways.
But each night when she comes home, you'll be there for her: assuring her that she's gorgeous, inside and out. Affirming the incredible gifts and talents that God has given her. Telling her that she's better than good enough. Your love...that selfless, amazing, God-given love that you've shown me over the past 10 years...that incredible love that has changed me and my understanding of God's love...Your love will wash over her everytime you guys read a book together, draw a picture together, work out a math problem together, or sing a song together.
And I am so grateful for that. You are an incredible husband and daddy. Thank you for loving us like you do.
With all my heart,
~L
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Ruby Elizabeth,
Today is a big day, kiddo. :) You've chosen your outfit, and you've been asking, "Is it time to go to the school yet?" since I told you about it yesterday evening. :) You're quick to let me know that you're "a little nervous" because you "don't know any of the kids yet." And I've tried to tell you that you'll make friends very quickly and easily, but you're still not convinced. And I'm kinda okay with that. :)
I'm glad that you think of home as a safe space. I'm thankful for the past five years and all we've learned and done together. I would be a little sad if you weren't showing any hesitancy at all.
But this is my secret: I'm savoring every moment of your hesitancy, because I know it's already headed toward extinction. I've got a sneaking suspicion that you won't be hesitant after tonight. If I had to place a bet, I'd play it safe and bet that you'll be completely comfortable (if not running the whole show) after the first week. ;)
You see, you were born for this, kiddo. Perhaps the public school system isn't fit for every child, but if ever there was a child that fit the public school system, it's you. Some people think it's too much to expect a five-year-old to be able to spread the love and joy and truth of Jesus Christ, and it might be for some children. But not you. You understand what it means to follow Jesus Christ better than I understood it five years ago. And you don't just understand it, you live it. I see God's love through you every single day.
You're helpful and compassionate. You desire to make others happy and to make wise choices. You're willing to make hard choices.
Beyond all of that, you're intelligent and very well-spoken. You are stubborn and full of leadership abilities. You're creative and entertaining. You are the most beautiful young lady I know.
Ruby-doo, I love you way more than I can describe with letters and words. That's why sometimes I just squeeze you tight and cry a little bit. You and the rest of our family are the most important things in the world to me, and I am so thankful that I get to be your mommy.

It won't be long now, and we'll be walking into your new elementary school. I can't wait to experience this new phase with you.
I love you, kiddo. Go get 'em!
~Mommy
Dear Ruby,
It's been exactly one month since you turned five years old. And I can honestly say that you are a completely different girl. From very simple silly things like being able to color almost perfectly inside the lines or getting better and better at writing and spelling to making such mature, selfless, and helpful decisions that you make your momma cry tears of happiness instead of frustration.

Last month, I was at a loss. We were at odds, and I didn't know what to do. But we worked it out, kiddo. You and me.
Sometimes with tears. Sometimes with frustration. But most of the time with calm words and lots of love.
And you know what? I'm pretty proud of us for that.
We're not perfect yet or anything, but our days are filled laughter and smiles much more than conflict.

Yesterday, I was cleaning up the house, and I asked if you'd help when you were finished coloring. You colored for about five more seconds and then you said, "Momma, I really want to color more, but I think it would be more loving if I stopped now and helped you clean up. I can always color later."
No joke, kiddo. You said those exact words. And you proceeded to put action to your words. You picked up all the books and toys. You folded the blankets that were sitting out. Even after I thanked you for helping and excused you from helping, you persisted. You just kept inventing things to do to "help" me. I'd never seen the drawings and magnets on our fridge so straight and organized. ;)
You've been memorizing James with me. You're especially stuck on the verses that talk about favoritism. We've been discussing the importance of treating everyone with love and mercy, no matter what. We've been trying to practice by treating each other with love and kindness, even when we're frustrated or upset.

You've had a growth spurt over the past month, too. It's a good thing the weather will be warming up soon, because your leggings are turning into capris. ;) You're not allowed to be on your knees on your top bunk anymore, either, because (even sitting on your heels) you're center of balance is well above the guard rail. Your bottom is the safest choice.
I'm just completely in awe of you, Roo. I love watching you grow and change and learn. You're incredible, kiddo. I'm so excited to keep growing with you, my sweet daughter.
I love you more than you love princesses, fairies, ballerinas, and mermaids all put together! That's a whole stinkin' lot, Roobadoo! ;)
I'll see you in the morning, okay? I think I'll take you on a girls' date to see Annie, too. How does that sound?
Good? Good. It's a date.

Is there anything you can do that would make me stop loving you? :) Nope. Not a single thing. Don't ever forget that, okay?
Always,
~Momma
I sneak into their rooms every single night.
I pretend that I do it to check on them, straighten their blankies, and make sure Duckie and Rackie are close at hand. But those aren't the real reasons.
I do it just so that I can look at their beautiful sleeping faces and kiss their incredibly soft cheeks.

I don't take them for granted. Burke shouldn't even be alive. And Ruby...
Well, she probably shouldn't be, either.
She had another allergic reaction this week. It wasn't anaphylactic. (Thank you, God.) But it also wasn't in response to peanuts. It seems we might be looking at a new allergy.
She'll be visiting her allergist next Wednesday to get a full panel and see what's going on with her little body. Prayers of healing are most welcome!
While part of me wants to be frustrated, I'm not.
I can't help but think of my friends' daughter, Ella, who needs a kidney transplant. I pray for them every single day, and I can't even express how much I admire Joe and Angela.
It makes food allergies pale in comparison.
What I do know is this:
Children are precious. We do not have a right to have children. They are a blessing. One that we should be grateful for each day.
So, today, I'm holding my kiddos tightly. Tonight, I'll sneak into their rooms again for a stolen kiss and a whispered prayer. Tomorrow, I'll do it all over again.
Because I love these children with every fiber of my being, and I could not be more thankful for them.
Do you have children? Do you sneak into their bedrooms at night for a hug and kiss? How can I be praying for you as you navigate this journey of parenting?
This week started out rough, but it has gotten better and better with each passing day! :) My ear is back to normal, and the kids and I have had a ton of fun over the past two afternoons.
A friend of mine was talking about the West Lafayette Municipal Pool on Facebook on Wednesday morning. We joined her at the pool that afternoon, and wow! I'm a *huge* fan of that pool. They've got three separate pools: an olympic sized lap pool with a diving well, a traditional baby pool with a little fountain, and a toddlers pool that's 2-3.5 feet deep.
Ruby calls the toddlers pool the "just right pool." I think that's absolutely adorable. She's gotten to be a really good swimmer, and I think we'll definitely do swimming lessons next summer.
Burke has taken to the Just Right Pool like a fish! While he's normally hesitant to play in water, Burke seems much more comfortable in this pool. I think its smaller size decreases his anxiety.
Today, we're heading down to Indianapolis for some playtime with Caleb and Aunt Megan's bachelorette party. Then, we'll be celebrating Independence Day by serving lunch to our friends at Trinity on Sunday. I'm sure we'll catch Transformers: Dark of the Moon and a few fireworks at some point this weekend, as well.
We hope you have a great weekend, everyone!
Ruby has finally gotten old enough to realize that Meijer, Target, and Walmart all have toy aisles...sections, actually. Everytime we shop at one of those stores, she asks to take a stroll. Occasionally, she gets her wish. :)
Ruby always wants to go down the "girl" aisles. Barbies, babies, dress-up clothes... It's all familiar to her. The colors are varying shades of pink and purple with an occasional pop of teal or orange. The categories of play are all some sort of role play: Princess, Mommy, Cook, Beauty Consultant. She knows what to expect, and she knows the "rules" of the game.
Burke has started to take an interest in "boy" toys. Bright lights, loud sounds. It's all good, as far as he's concerned. :) Cars, balls, trains, blocks, Legos... It's a whole new world. He loves the displays and the "Try Me" buttons. He's excited to explore and charged for the challenge. He has no idea what to expect, but he assumes it'll be fun.
Ruby is learning from her little brother. She had no idea that pulling a lever and seeing a Hot Wheels shoot to the top of a track could be so much fun. She never realized that they make MegaBloks and Legos in pink and purple. She didn't know that boys like to dress up, too!
When we went to Target last week, she asked if we could take a stroll through the toy section.
Then she asked if we could go down the boy aisles first.
I want to be more like Burke. I want to joyfully, whole-heartedly, excitedly jump into new adventures without any fear.
I want to be more like Ruby. I want to enjoy the comfort of the familiar and be willing to consider the possibility that something new could be just as good.
Or maybe even better.
And if it turns out that something new is something good, I want to own it and embrace it even if it's "for boys."
They teach me more and more every day...even as we walk down the toy aisle.
I pray that I can grow up to be the kind of person my children are.
Mike, Ruby, and Burke got me a Barnes&Noble giftcard for Mother's Day. They certainly know the way into this woman's heart!! :) Of course, like many mothers I know, the minute I went to use my gift card, I found myself desiring to spend the money on my family instead. (I don't know if I've ever used that many commas in a sentence before. Ever. Is that sentence even grammatically correct? Kirsten? Anyone?)
Anyway...
Ruby has been asking me to teach her to read for quite some time. I've known for several years that I wanted to use the BOB Books to teach her the basics of reading. They are quite pricey, so I've wanted to wait until I was sure she would use them.
Tonight, as I walked passed them on the shelf, I figured I'd give her a test run and see if she was ready.
With a little bit of teaching from me, she read the entire first book, "Mat."
Now, I'll admit that "Mat" only contains four words: Mat, sat, Sam, and on. Those words are arranged, rearranged, and repeated to make a 23-word story about two friends who sit on each other. No, I'm not kidding. ;)
Nonetheless, it's a book. And Ruby read it. I won't lie: I teared up as she sounded out these words and read them.
When she finished reading the book, she looked up at me with golf-ball sized eyes:
"MOM! I. just. read. a. whole. book."
"I know, honey! That's great!"
"MOM! I'm the first four-year-old girl EVER to read a whole book!"
I chuckled and informed her that her mother actually began reading at the age of four, as well. Apparently being (at least) the second four-year-old girl to ever read a whole book didn't dampen her excitement. She insisted on calling her grandparents to tell them the news.
And that's the beauty of BOB Books. They are embarrassingly short and easy to read...but they encourage the new reader by instantly giving them a HUGE accomplishment: reading an entire book all by themselves! :)
Anyway, when we got home, Ruby was happy to read "Mat" for the camera. She still struggles a bit with "Sam", since it's not the same "a" sound as "Mat." She's figuring it out, though.
I'm telling you what: Seeing my daughter read her first book was the best Mother's Day gift I could have ever gotten...totally worth using my gift card on her. :)
(As a disclaimer, BOB Books has no idea that I've written this post. They are not compensating me in any way, shape, or form. This is purely a Mom relentlessly bragging about her daughter's most recent accomplishment.)
I have never thougt of myself as Mrs. Goodwin. Not ever. Anytime I've taught kids at church or otherwise, I've asked them to call me Ms. Lindsay. That's not gonna fly at my new school. The kids are required to call us by our last names... Which leaves me as Mrs. Goodwin.
It's a little (okay, a lot) weird..
But I'm getting used to it.
I spent several hours observing classes this week and several (several!) more prepping for my classes next week. Today alone, I spent about six hours getting prepped and planned.
So far, I've come to these realizations:
1. I have *missed* teaching, and I didn't even know it.
2. While a bit of disorganization my be okay in my home, it is not okay in my classroom. I am Type A all the way inside my room. Since I'm room-sharing, however, it's going to be a little interesting. I'll be using someone else's room and teaching from a cart. :) I'm up for the challenge!
3. I'm a little bit of a perfectionist when it comes to bulletin boards and classroom displays. I put up (and re-put up) one bulletin board several times today. I'm going to have to plan them out to a "t" in the future in order to save myself the time and frustration.
I'll have fourteen kids in my new class, and I'm absolutely thrilled with all of them. We're hosting a meet and greet for the parents and students on Monday night, and I'm a little nervous to meet them all in an official capacity. I've met a lot of them at one point or another in the hallways at school, but now I'll be responsible for helping to teach their children...what a responsibility!!
Anyway, this week was a little crazy in terms of time management. I'm hoping that, once I get into the groove of things, I'll be able to spend less than 30 hours a week on a two day per week job. ;) Until then, however, I'm supremely enjoying every minute of getting this class ready to go!
Next week, I'll be teaching my new students in my new room, and I'd appreciate your prayers. I'll let you know how it goes. :)
Thank you for contributing to the emergency fund for my friend. All together, we raised $500 to give her a cushion during this stressful time. Thank you. Thank you, thank you.
Have a wonderful Sunday!
I spent four years and a lot of my parent's money getting a bachelor's degree in Child Development and Family Services. I spent several semesters and not a small bit of my sanity working in Purdue's Child Development Labs and preschool classes. I spent two years nannying the sweetest little girl in the world.
I've spent the past three years being a wife and mommy.
I never imagined going back into the classroom.
So, it's a little surreal for me to be making this announcement.
I have officially accepted a position as a K-3 preschool teacher at Faith Christian School. :)
On Thursday, when I picked Ruby up, the director of the preschool called me into her office and offered me the position. I was immediately excited and ready to accept the position, but I needed to work out a childcare arrangement for Burke.
I thought it would be impossible to find:
1. Someone I trusted.
2. Who was available with almost no notice.
3. In my price range.
Incredibly, I was wrong. (Thank you, God! A direct answer to prayer.)
On Tuesday morning, I'll begin a two-week training and observing period. Then, they'll set me free in a classroom full of three-year-olds.
I'm still not sure what to think. I'm excited. And nervous. And thankful. And intimidated. And thrilled. And challenged. And...you know...all of that. :)
It's been a long time since I've been in a classroom. I'm hoping it's just like riding a bike. :)
Prayers appreciated. Have a great rest of your weekend!
Burke is obsessed with is belly button. Obsessed!
Sometimes, he'll hold my finger and rub his belly button with my finger.
Every once in a while, he wants to see my belly button.
Just now, while I was holding him, he started to lift up my shirt to see my belly button. When I showed him where it was, he got a really sad look on his face, poked his finger in the hole, and said, "It's gone. It's all gone!"
I started laughing really hard, and he started crying.
You see, Burke and Ruby both have half-innie/half-outtie belly buttons. So, when he plays with his own belly button, there's an actual "part" of his body in the hole.
I have a complete innie belly button. It's just a hole in the middle of my stomach.
So, poor Burke thinks my belly button is missing...and he's quite distraught about that fact.
I tried to console him, but I don't know how to explain innies and outties to my two-year-old. Any tips?
Our weekday getting dressed routine is surprisingly...well, routine. :) At least in some ways...
It always starts out the same, pajama-clad kids bundled under blankies on the couch. A momma checking e-mail, Twitter, and blogs on the computer. When the morning movie ends, we turn off the electronics and Momma says, "Let's go upstairs and get dressed!"
And so we do, two kids and a momma make their way up the stairs. Somewhere between the couch and the third stair, we transform. These three innocent beings become the Burkster, the Rubster, and the Momster. It starts with a tingle in my toes. The tingle travels to my arms. In no time, I find myself growling and roaring and yelling, in a half-panicked voice, "It's the MOMSTER!"
The momster tickles and hugs and kisses and steals the kids away to her cave (a queen bed fitted with soft sheets and a snuggly down comforter.) The kidsters start to fight back with their own tickling fingers and kissing lips and hugging arms. After a few minutes, the tingling stops, and I go to take my shower.
The kids play upstairs while I shower. Sometimes, I find them having a picnic when I get out of the shower. Most of the time, however, I find them on Ruby's bed, reading books together. We go ahead and put our clothes on, and, inevitably, we play another around of "Momster!"
Today, the routine varied. I went straight up and took my shower. When I got out, I found the kids, stripped down to their nappy/underwear and socks, sitting on Ruby's bed...reading books. They had *my* blanket on the bed with them...and I felt that playful spirit seep into my bones.
"Hey!" I said in mock-irritation. "That's MY blanket!!" I grabbed it and *ran* to my bedroom. Of course, they chased after me. I jumped into my bed and pretended to sleep, complete with fake snores. Two littles jumped in with me and the oldest said, "Let's play SLEEPOVER!"
So they brought some of their stuffed animals and blankies into my bed and we pretended to sleep. Except it was nothing like sleep. It was a lot of Burke crawling around and making noise and Ruby saying, "Burke! GO TO SLEEP!" "BURKE! BE QUIET!"
Finally, I said, "Ruby, just pretend you can't hear him."
"But I can't do that! I have ears!" she replied.
Oh, of course...
At one point, they decided to go get more blankets and stuffed animals out of their rooms. So I snuck into my bathroom to hide.
When they came back, they were astonished. "Mom! Where'd she go?" said Ruby. "She go?" added Burke.
They left to search for me, and I got back into bed.
They came back. "Here she is! How did that happen?"
They left. I hid.
They searched. I came back.
Finally, Ruby said, "Burke, I'm going to go get more blankets and stuffed animals. You stay here and watch Momma."
:) She's something else, that girl.
When she came back, we snuggled together. We ticked and kissed and hugged and I might have even gotten kicked in the nose one or twelve times. But it's all good, because those giggles and those smiles and those little arms around my neck... Man, that's what dreams are made of.
So, today, as I sort and wash and dry and fold and carry up the stairs and put away...as I feel the urge to grumble about the laundry...
I choose to be thankful for clothes and thankful for laundry. Because clothes and laundry mean that yesterday, we got dressed. And today, we got dressed. And, tomorrow, we get to do it again.
I can't wait. :)


